October is a month I choose to ignore.
Other than Halloween, October serves absolutely zero purpose for me and here's a secret... I don't even like Halloween. All this month does is remind me of pain and trauma. Others choose to raise awareness for one thing or another. Today's trigger: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness. Unfortunately, when you have so many issues raised, in one month, it's hard not to feel overwhelmed. I get it, I really do. Please know I do understand and empathize with the people who are going through these things, right now. Those who feel alone and need to find support, those in need of a community of people who they trust, where they can share their pain. I’m not that person. My closest friends will tell you, they forget, not because they are being dismissive, or insensitive, but because I have been. I’ll go one step further to express that even my family forgets. I have chosen for years to ignore this month. This month reminds me of slipping so far into a deep, dark depression that ...